Monday 22 July 2013

i'm smoking a cigarette with my friend when i notice that we both have identical scars in the same place. thin white line, inside left arm, just below the crook of the elbow. i feel excited and intimidated. we light more cigarettes, talk about our shitty jobs, talk about sex - her with girls, me with boys. all experiences equally animalistic and awkward and depressing. we drink limeade from the bottle. we talk about university, alcohol - "i was drunk for months and i hated everything". now i just steal codeine tablets from a nice lady at work because the level of mess created can always be contained. i was always a sloppy drunk. the sky begins to thunder, and then the rain comes. the lighting strikes just behind us. a constant feeling of disappointment