i'm yours, ghosts and all

i remember reading something in that famous edie sedgwick biography - a quote about andy warhol - it was something like, "andy warhol would have liked to have been born a rich, beautiful socialite from a well-regarded family. andy warhol would have liked to have been born as anyone but andy warhol". i always think that i would be happier if i was born richer, if i was born in another country, if i was born confident, if i was born thinner, if i was born conventionally pretty, if i was born with a certain amount of social status. but really the root of my unhappiness is myself. i could only ever be happy if i was born in another life, as someone else